“You need to find a better disguise” I hear someone say, it must have been Daniel. Scared and worried by this statement I break free from my daze, “Sorry?” I say. Daniel then replies, “What?” I then say, “I mean I didnt hear what you said”. Daniel takes a bite of his subway, swallows and then slowly exclaims “I said, you are going to spoil the surprise”. The panic building inside me subsides. I wipe the sweat from my brow, my left wrist is on show so I pull my sleeve down. I take a sip of my Coke Zero. I pull my hood up, “Oh, sorry”, I offer. Daniel looking down, inspecting his finger nails replies “huh?”, I lean back on my chair, “I am in the clutches of an existential panic”. Daniel not really paying attention or choosing not to hear me, says “what?”, “Nothing” I reply. My head hurts. I want to go home and shower. I feel dirty even though I showered twice before 2pm. There is what looks like blood under my finger nails. Without excusing myself, I get up and go to the bathroom. Sweat dripping off me, I burst into one of the stalls, throw up, cry and throw up again. I think that was the right order. I stand in front of the mirror, wash my hands and face. I fix my hair. Someone wearing what I can only describe as a grim reaper costume comes out from one of the stalls behind me. Is it Halloween already?… Sufficiently frightened I leave quickly, returning to Daniel at the table. I ask him with a sense of urgency, “Did you see, like, uh I dont know…some kind of grim reaper in here earlier?” Puzzled, Daniel looks up from his meal, “Grim reaper?” Nodding my head, I say “Yes, A grim reaper, Death, a costume, it sounds absurd I know”. I am aware of how frightening I must look right now. “Is it? Is it absurd?” He replies, standing up putting on his jacket. “Yes, it is, I mean…isnt it?” I inquire, looking at him straight in the eyes which I really hate doing. I follow him towards the exit, he opens the door, turns and says something along the lines of “It’s a little late for Halloween dont you think?” I have no idea what month it is.